The Deed

Selling your soul
On the road to nowhere
Demons inside you rest

Traveling far
Places in nightmares
Doing things that you detest

Close your eyes
Walk ahead, and
Numb yourself to pain

The deed is done
It’s all over
Can you live again?

Paper Boats

Few paper boats , one rainy day,
Floated out of their puddles , far far away,
Joining different streams, they crossed various plains,
Till the mouth of the river where two met in the end.

Through harsh currents, they floated side by side,
Through day and night, on what seemed an endless ride,
But endless wasn't endless for very long,
One cloudy night, in came the storm

The winds howled and it began to pour,
And one paper boat, it suddenly tore,
The sky cleared up , and the rain it stopped,
But one paper boat was pretty messed up.


Though the other paper boat tried, it didn't want to be helped ,
So it floated by the side , made it presence felt,
Now both paper boats knew the damage was done,
Still down life's river by its side till they both are gone....

Be the one to make the difference, don't lose yourself on the way !!!

I don’t know bout a lot of things in this world, but I do know a few about myself …. I want to make a difference … A friend of mine always talks bout doin something great … but people sometimes fail to understand what great can really be …Money now a days is a highly over- rated asset I feel.... Yes , I agree its imp but….where is the line drawn , where does it stop being not just plain imp and starts becoming our life….

I used to admire my cousin … she was never rich to start with, learnt the hard way …..suddenly overnight , married money …but it didn’t change her for a very long time … I can’t say that anymore and the sad part is that she sincerely believes that she hasn’t still, while anyone around her can see how she has …. I sometimes wonder if that may happen to me and I’m tryin from now not to let it…

Sometimes, we also fail to realize a lot of things ...we see the things we and our loved ones never had … and we want to give them the best … and that’s not a bad thing , but I also feel that when we give the best , we also need to give them a taste of the worst …..

My nieces have never traveled by the BEST bus …always the car … the best schools ..with horse riding , archery, swimming, etc ….I love the fact that I was in a normal school …it kept me grounded in so many ways…. Yes I would love to go horse riding and do archery, I still can …. But some things that are far more valuable to me and have shaped me are our social service trips … I still remember the look of excitement on Roshini’s face when I bought her a piece of chocolate cake …. The thankful smile on the face of the women I went to help in the field in Titwali when she was cuttin the rice …..

Recently a friend made a statement to me “why are you sittin at 2:00 am in the morning and taking this info from me …that too for the f**cking company” … I can’t really remember exactly what I said but I know I said it was important to me …

Everyone is capable of makin a difference … I only wish that the few who wanted to don’t end up losing their way….it just takes one small deed …something that really pinches you… When I said this at an innovation workshop , the trainer smiled and asked me to watch a movie- “Pay it forward” …I have …. I hope I make that same difference… I don’t care if I’m ever remember or no one knows my name…. I just want to make in difference in everything I do and I want to make people do the same.

Alcoholic mix !!!

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Coke and whiskey
Vodka and rum
Mix them together
And have some fun

One glass of wine
Another of gin
Combination central
The deadliest sin

Now hold the glass high
Toast to the pain
Turn it around
Pour it down the drain !!!

Misunderstood ….

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I know some people think I’m not letting go
They feel I’m tryin, to run through closed doors
I don’t blame people for failing to see
Was trying to gain some ground on normality

Its hard to love and be just friends
Together today and apart next weekend
I’m sorry about what happened these days
Until now didn’t know where things stood anyway

Don’t know if its too late to make amends
But really would like it if we could be friends…

Walking …..

I’m walking down this road again
Alone once more, I’m on my own
I’ve traveled various paths before
But this time round, my heart's more sore

Strange how people pass you by
Strange how people change your life
It took me 4 years to find someone
Completely understood where I was comin from

Didn’t wanna walk down this path again,
But , walking once more cause we’re now just friends.

God Help Me !!!!
I’ve been a little pre-occupied lately; some might even say a little obsessed …Hmm its strange to think what heights you’re capable of reaching given the right provocation … Started reading a friends blog today … it brought back memories of days when I just lived …..

Okay so I confess, been a little stressed out lately … but after a nice episode of being caught sleep walking and talking (hey just for your info , its my first time) I’m ready to head towards normality again.

This year has been one amazing ride from the start…. Spent an amazing New Years in Goa with the best of company… but even new years night was full of surprises… confessed my heart out to someone … it scared the shit out of me , but it was worth it …. I seriously hated keeping the truth hidden for so long…

Now, when I say it was worth it .. god!! besides making me feel a little at easy, I seriously urge people --- don’t open Pandora’s Box on New Years Eve !!!

I never really understood how confusing the human species is till I met someone….scary thing is, each time I talk to that someone, I think I’m starting to understand the language of his insanity…. God Help Me!!!